Gulya; <fdw4434@hotmail.com/fz1576@hotmail.com>

[Sheldon12]

Hello my xxxxx!Your words warm me up! When I read your lines I want to hug you! I enjoy your compliments and sincere words. I like this. It is always interesting for me to hear about you, about your life, about some moments of your life. You are an interesting person. I like this. I like to learn a little more about you in every letter that you write to me. I really like your new photo. I'm glad you sent me this. Your words bring me a lot of emotions! Today I dreamed about us. I imagined that my night dream was real, that we were really walking with you in the park and holding each other's hand. I am shy to say, but I imagined how in the light of lanterns we kissed, it was the first kiss, which like lightning pierces my heart, from the emotion of this kiss I can go crazy! Writing these words to you makes me want to cover my eyes with my palms because I'm so self-conscious about these words. I imagined how we slowly walk down the alley, and you without any words hugged me, looked into my eyes and just kissed me.... I don't know what to do now. All my thoughts are only about this dream now, it's like hypnoses, I close my eyes and see my dream of us. xxxx, have you dreamed about something like this? What do you think about it? Maybe I didn't need to talk about it, I don't know what you'll think after I say this.... I just want to be more open with you because you have become more than just a close person to me. I have feelings for you in my heart. I feel like it's love. Those are the feelings that inspire people to be beautiful and great! If I could look into your eyes right now and say all this, I would see the answer in your emotions! I think and dream of you. Yours and only yours Gulya

[Sheldon12]

Hello, my xxxxx! I missed you and didn't sleep well all night because I was thinking about you a lot, thinking about
us. Thinking about us kept me awake, it was like an avalanche that couldn't be stopped. An avalanche of dreams and emotions and feelings. All this did not let me concentrate, I looked out the window and thought about you, what you can do at this time, about your thoughts, about your mood... I like pancakes for breakfast. But I've never tried maple syrup before. But I think it's really good. I really like your new photo. I'm glad you sent me this. You are a very interesting person. I like this. In every letter from you, I hear some new and interesting things about your life, about you. I like this. I hope to continue our communication and see what will be the result of this. We can talk a lot about feelings, but I understand that it won't be enough. These feelings are the key to happiness, to the mental balance that almost all people dream about. But all this can only be possible when the distance between us disappears. What do you think of our meeting? I understand it's a big step in our lives. And I wouldn't want to put that responsibility on you.
So many thoughts in my head right now, I don't know how to focus on this. There's been a lot of changes in my heart, in my thoughts. I'm so glad I can feel it! I can feel the beautiful things that thoughts of you give me! This is all too new to me. I will be visiting my parents, I am sure they will support me and advise me wise things. When I visit my parents, it's like I hide from the hustle and bustle, from the difficulties and I can calmly think things over, in which my parents will definitely help me. I will look for your lines and write to you as soon as I can. I miss you so much. Your Gulya

[Sheldon12]

xxxx my love! I miss you... I can't imagine how to put into words all my emotions right now. I think about you a lot, even when I was at my parents' house. I didn't realize that I talked about you most of the time. My dad asked a lot about you, I could see the excitement in his eyes. My parents only want me to be happy. I told my parents about you. And they're happy to have you in my life! My mom said the most important thing is that I'm happy. They would love to meet you one day. Your beautiful words and compliments are always nice to my heart. I am happy to hear it. Every time my heart is filled with joy when I see your beautiful words. Thank you for these wonderful emotions and feelings that you have brought in my life. I'd like to hug you now, to tell you how I spent my time in my parents' village. Every time I visit my parents we sit down at the table and cook a delicious meal. Usually we make dinner together with my mom. I like that. Every visit to my parents is like a holiday for me. Delicious food, easy conversations, talking about any topic, walks in the woods or near lakes. Nature is good and very beautiful in my parents' village. It calms me down and helps me to think about everything. My parents are really happy for us. My mom said that she saw some sparkle, some fire in my eyes. I was really happy to hear that. I myself notice that after acquaintance with you, my life has changed, it became a little brighter, got new colors, and I am very glad that thanks to you I was able to know this beautiful feeling as love. Have you noticed any changes in your life since we got to know each other? I'd love to hear your thoughts on that.
I hope you find a chance to write to me. I'll be looking forward to your lines. Love, Gulya

[Sheldon12]

Hello, my xxxx! I have a lot of emotions in my heart right now! This whole time I feel like it's a time of change, a
meaningful change in my life! It's like I'm standing near a line, crossing which everything will change, but I don't
know what to think right now. I also have doubts in my heart. There are so many bad stories about girls who left their homeland and ended up in bad situations, there are too many bad people in our world. But I believe in my feelings that I have for you, my xxxx. I need moral support now. I like your new beautiful photo from your letter. Your beautiful words and compliments are always nice to my heart. I am happy to hear it. Every time my heart is filled with joy when I see your beautiful words. Thank you for these wonderful emotions and feelings that you have brought in my life. I like your letters where you tell me about your days, about your life. Every time I read your lines I learn more and more some new things about you, about your life, about your character. I like that. I enjoy your dreams of us. It always sounds beautiful and romantic. It's like a storm of emotions and feelings rush to my heart every time I see your dreams of us. I love it. I think about you a lot! Today when I was cooking dinner, I was imagining what it would be like if you helped me, if I could do any ordinary things with you! I think everything would be more colorful! It's like a black and white movie suddenly became colorful. Do you understand what I'm saying? Can you feel my words? What do you feel when you read these lines? But I need to make a choice, to overcome these doubts, it worries me a lot and doesn't give me any peace!
I'm meeting Indira today. I would like to share my thoughts and emotions with her. She always helps me in difficult
situations and supports me morally. There is just a storm of emotions in my heart. I think a lot about you, about us, about our meeting. If I could hug you in these moments, that all thoughts would disappear, that I could feel that I am not alone now and I can hold your hand. But there's too much distance between us now. When I woke up that morning I saw the first rays of sunshine, I always wanted to share such a moment with a close person for whom I have feelings in my heart. I imagined us meeting the sunrise together, seeing nature waking up. Your appearance in my life is the sunrise for me, for my feelings that I have long dreamed of. xxxxx, I'll finish this letter, Indira is waiting for me. I will look for your lines. Love, Gulya

[Sheldon12]

xxxx my love!!! I missed you so much during this time! I think about you a lot, about us. Yesterday I fell asleep with a smile on my face imagining how happy I would be to fall asleep in your arms. So many things happen to me at this time. I dream of being by your side in these moments. I believe that soon it will become a reality. Your beautiful words and compliments are always nice to my heart. I am happy to hear it. Every time my heart is filled with joy when I see your beautiful words. Thank you for these wonderful emotions and feelings that you have brought in my life. I enjoy your dreams of us. It always sounds beautiful and romantic. It's like a storm of emotions and feelings rush to my heart every time I see your dreams of us. I love it. I like your letters where you tell me about your days, about your life. Every time I read your lines I learn more and more some new things about you, about your life, about your character. I like that. Today I found out where the travel agency is in my city. I'm a little nervous about visiting it. I will try to find out what is necessary for our meeting. I am looking forward to the day when we will hug and kiss each other. I am overwhelmed with emotion right now. I can't imagine how to describe these emotions in my heart! It's so beautiful! I was listening to some music today. I have never reacted so vividly to music about love, it's like these songs have taken on a new meaning for me! What changes do you feel? When I listened to the music I imagined how we could dance together, when you would put your warm palms on my waist, how we could look into each other's eyes and enjoy every moment! It's so
romantic! xxxx do you have a song during which we could slow dance, your favorite song? Tell me your dreams for our first dance, what should it be like? I've been thinking about our first kiss. I'm so shy to talk about it. But I like to be open in my thoughts and emotions with you. I feel like I can trust you completely with everything. Behind your back I could feel myself in complete safety and confidence. This is of great importance to me. My heart feels like it's glowing right now, I've been dreaming all my life about the feelings I have now. You are the man who gave me these feelings, woke me up from a long sleep, a sleep of a lifetime! It's like a new life has begun, a life in which I am capable of feelings for such a beautiful and good man like you! I can write a lot about feelings, about magical things and dreams that bring these feelings! But I understand that the most magical moments are the moments of the first meeting, the first look and kiss! I think that these moments will live forever in our hearts, will give us warmth and happy emotions all our lives! I feel I am a woman who is able to love and be loved. I have dreamed of this all my life! You were able to give me these feelings, I am eternally grateful to fate for this! I miss you. With all my heart I hope I can soon say all these things looking into your eyes. I will fall asleep dreaming of us tonight. Forever yours Gulya

[Sheldon12]

xxxx... My love... I write to you with tears on my face, I cant stop crying... Never in life to me was so badly and
sadly. I am simply frightened now. I visited tourist agency, I have learnt about all that is necessary for our meeting.
But it has brought a pain to my heart, it has wounded me, to me it is terrible now! I cannot arrive to you, forgive
me... It is too a big funds for me. It above my possibilities, I did not imagine that such great funds will be
necessary. I have no possibility to arrive to you and I understand that it has brought a pain to your heart. To me that you can terribly begin to hate me, terribly that I could wound your feelings, your heart. xxxxx, you the most important person in this world for me! I am ready on all for the sake of happiness with you, but I am powerless in this situation. I understand... I understand that you will be angry with me, that you will not want to see me and to listen, because I have rested your hopes because I promised to you and could not arrive... All that I wanted to be it in your embraces. But the cruel reality has knocked me down, has brought down and does not allow is risen on feet again!!! Justin, forgive me for everything, forgive that I have broken your heart, have brought to you excitement and a pain... I will always love you, but I do not imagine that to me to do now. It will be possible to me better simply to disappear and not to torment you further... I do not know how me to worry this night, I do not know what to do further! I feel myself such helpless and silly!!! I do not know how I could be such naive, believing that for happiness the love is necessary only!!! I as if feel as my heart I stop from a pain, in despair, I do not know how me to calm down how me to master with myself, my thoughts and this mad pain! I cannot think of what, to me only is terrible and sick! I so dreamt of us so imagined our first kiss much much, I lived only these instants, anticipated it! And all these dreams have failed, have burnt down in a flash, they have disappeared in the dark my fear, my pain and despair... xxxx, I cannot make anything what to appear in your embraces now, to me so is sick from it... Forgive that I have not justified your hopes about us.
I understand that is guilty in everything if I have not appeared in your life, all it would not be. We did not rest hope of our happiness and love. We simply would lead usual life... But I would not bring a pain to your heart. But now all our dreams so are far from us... Justin, I love you, I love you most of all in this world!!! You the unique man in my life, you my man who has brought to my heart such fine feelings! But I could not carry out our dreams, could not make a reality our first meeting, our first kiss! To me so it is terrible, I want to disappear and not to feel this pain simply... Forgive me for all it, I am guilty to you, is guilty to our feelings. I have spoilt all, I have destroyed all magic of our feelings, magic of affinity of our hearts. I do not know why destiny so is cruel to us, why the destiny gives us chance and takes away it at once... But do not blame yourself, in all I am guilty only. Forgive me. My love...
Yours and only yours Gulya...

[Sheldon12]

xxxx... My love... I couldn't sleep well all night, I kept thinking about you, thinking about us. All this time I
lived only for the dream of our meeting. I imagined the great happiness that our first kiss would bring! But I never
imagined it could be so far away from us. You are the most important person in the world to me. I need nothing more than your embrace right now! I was flying in my dreams when I visited the travel agency. They said the travel arrangements would be done within half a month. I would be so happy if only half a month separated us. But this has too much cost for me. I am ready to give my life for our meeting. But I am powerless in this situation. 790 US dollars is too much for me.
I'm sorry. What will we do for our meeting? Will we find a way to our meeting? Will we be together? Thank you for all the care and support, for all the love you give me in my life. It's very important to me in these difficult moments. All I need for happiness is to wake up every morning in your arms, to feel that the most important person for me is always near me, that I can kiss you at any moment, to tell you what is in my thoughts and to see your eyes at this time! I can't stop the tears as I write these words to you..... If you could take these tears away from my face, look into my eyes and say words of love, say that you are with me and won't leave me alone! Wouldn't leave me alone with any difficulties..... But you're far away from me now. This distance is tearing my heart apart, tormenting me! I don't know how I can have sleep tonight, I can't focus my thoughts and have at least a drop of peace... I will wait with great excitement for your letter. Your girl Gulya

[Sheldon12]

xxx my love!!! Every night I dream about you, every time these dreams bring me so many emotions! I hope with all my heart that soon all this will become a reality and we will meet each new day together!!!! You are my other half, every new breath I take to bring the day of our meeting closer! But I'm very worried now because every new day is getting longer and longer for me.... I hope your weekend is good. I would be happy to spend these days together. Being next to you is a true happiness for me. And I want that to happen. I got your video in your letter. I will take a look at your video as soon as the internet here will be good again. I'm sorry. What about our meeting, xxxx ? What are we gonna do for our meeting? What's our plan? Are we gonna be together? Will we take care of our meeting? I hope with all my heart we find a way for us, we'll be together soon! And my heart is full of hope for our happiness, for our dreams to come true! This morning when I woke up, I hadn't opened my eyes yet. I lay like that for a few minutes, whispering my wish that you were lying beside me. I wished with all my heart that you were with me! Without opening my eyes I reached out my hand, I felt my hand touching you, I heard your breath. My heartbeat was so fast, I was breathing so fast! But when I opened my eyes I saw only a cold bed, I was alone... I believe that sincere wishes, dreams will always come true! Most of all in life I want to be with you now, to enjoy life together with you and feel how with each new minute our feelings become only bigger, brighter like a newborn star! I'm ready to shout to the whole world about the boundless feelings you give me! I hope that this time of our separation will end soon, and we will look at it as a hardship that we overcame for the sake of our love! I will be waiting with great excitement for your next letter. Forever yours Gulya

[Sheldon12]

Here's the part where I get sucked into the black hole

xxxx, my love! I think about you every day, I dream every minute that the day of our meeting becomes a reality!
I miss you very much, I can't imagine how I will survive one more day in this difficult waiting.... I think you know many things about my life. I have written you many big letters telling you about my life. I have recommended many times that you read any of my letters. Now you say you don't know me. That's strange, xxxxxx.
I understand that your life is full of care right now. I understand that your work is very important to you.
But what's the point of sitting around waiting for spring? Sitting around waiting for a miracle? To hope that someday in the spring we'll be together? Spring will come and you'll say your life is full of care and you'll say we should wait for summer. What's the point of wasting these long months that we could have spent together? I just don't understand it. I believe that we will find a way to realize all our dreams as soon as possible! I believe that
our love will help us to do it! I wish that all this distance between us would disappear and I could fall into your warm arms! Every night I dream about us. Today I had a dream that I was taking the last steps towards you,
I was reaching my hands towards you and I wanted to hug you so much! But you were moving away from me,
I ran and with tears in my eyes shouted words of love to you. I woke up and couldn't stop my tears.
I need you so much in such moments, I need to feel that you are near me and I can hide from everything bad surrounded by your caress and care! For me every new day that we could meet together would bring so much happiness and wonderful emotions! You like lit a fire of passion and feelings in my heart! I am grateful for these feelings to you! I so much want to share with you everything I have in my heart and in my dreams about us!
I think this world is so big, there are so many people in this world. And among billions of other individuals we were able to find each other, meant for love. I am so happy about this and I thank fate every day for this!
I think this is magic, we have been searching for our love for a long time and now it is left to take the last step to those things we have dreamed about all our lives! I don't want to seem naive to you or show my character as a schoolgirl in love. But with you coming into my life, I really feel like a teenager in love who can't contain his feelings. I dream of having fun with you every day, romantic moments, just being happy! You are the only person who can give me these feelings and emotions, because you are my other half. With all my heart I believe we will be together! Forever your Gulya

[Sheldon12]

xxxx, my prince! Every time I read your lines my breath becomes more frequent. I want to cry because I can't hold you and hug you in these moments! But I know that this time of our separation will end soon and we will be together! I think you've seen all my pictures. I don't have many pictures. I don't have a camera. And any pictures
I do are always done by my friend Indira using her camera. I'll try to find some new pictures for you. I hope the weather in your area returns to normal very soon. What about our meeting, xxxx? What are we gonna do for our meeting? What's our plan? Will we be together? Or are you not worried about that? If I could look into your eyes now... I would show you everything I feel in my gaze, in my touch. I dream to give you all my tenderness, to make every new day happier with you! I will be able to sleep well only in your arms, now I have excitement and I know that you understand me in this. Because you are the most important and closest person to me in this world! I want to share my thoughts and feelings with you. I think that you help me to feel that I am a complete person, the woman I always wanted to be. I think we can help each other to discover new sides of our personalities, to become better. It is very important for me that we can discover new sides of our personalities, good sides, romantic, caring and loving.... I hope you understand what I mean. You helped me to see a new meaning in life,
I didn't imagine that I could feel all this someday, my soul is like reborn and my heart has learned to sing, to feel every sip of life! Yes, xxxx, love is life and it fills me up. It is the most beautiful thing that has ever happened to me. You gave me this feeling. I want to build on that, to feel you even closer to me, to feel our spiritual connection! There is an old legend that a man has two souls and these souls, two halves are looking for each
other all their lives. I believe that you are my other soul, my other half that I have been searching for so long! But
sometimes two halves can't find each other and it kills them... But now we have nothing to fear, because we will be together, every new day we will overcome together and enjoy all the magical moments that life will give us! I'll be waiting for your letter. Your other half, Gulya

[Sheldon12]

xxxx, my knight. I miss you so much. Another day is behind me. I dream of spending every new day with you, making you the happiest man in this world! I'm happy that you are in my life and that you are understanding towards me. It's hard for me now, hard to keep my emotions under control, hard to hold back my tears because
I miss you and time lasts so long. But I believe that the time of our separation will end very soon and we will be together. I worry about you, Justin. Are you sick? Or what's going on? I wish I could take care of you in these moments. I sincerely hope you feel better very soon. I wish we could be together these days, these nights. I don't care where we meet. In your town or in my town. But I don't see the point in waiting until June for you to renew your passport. It's too long. We can be together in two weeks if we start preparing my travel to you now. After paying 790 US dollars to the agency, they'll start preparing my travel arrangements. After 2 weeks, I will get my documents and tickets. I will arrive at your place.
And we will be together forever. That's our plan if we are talking about my travel to you. Are we gonna take care of it? Are we gonna be together? Tonight I stood by the window and looked at the sky. I dreamed that soon I will be able to stand near the window and you will embrace me, we will admire the night sky, together we will dream about many things and events that are ahead of us. I dream to make every new step in life together with you, that you would hold my hand and lead me behind you, you are my man, my second half! xxxx, I can't describe in words all the feelings I have for you, it's like a boundless ocean, I can't imagine me without these feelings in my heart! It has become part of my personality, part of my soul! I am so glad that all this hard waiting, all this flow of difficult days is over and only happiness is ahead of us, only love to which we will be able to devote every day! I will be waiting with excitement for your letter. Forever your Gulya

[Sheldon12]

xxxx, my love! I miss you so much, I have been waiting impatiently for your letter! I need your affectionate and warm words! All my thoughts are only about you my prince! Every time looking at your beautiful photos from your letters I dream of our sweet kissing. I like these thoughts, these feelings. I'm glad you share your photos with me often. I'm worried about you right now. I wish I could take care of you in these moments. I sincerely hope you feel better very soon. I'll be back at the agency today to get the information to pay for my travel. xxxx, today I tried to distract myself from sad thoughts, from excitement. I listened to music, looked out the window, looked at the clouds and could not hold back my tears. Emotions overwhelmed me, I wanted to hug you in those moments, to press close to you, to feel your smell and the warmth of your touch. In those moments I need to feel that you are with me, to be able to hug you at any moment, to look into your eyes and say many tender words of love! I dream that soon we could listen to music together, look into each other's eyes, give tender kisses to each other! I would be the happiest woman in this world! I'll be waiting for your letter with impatience. Yours and only yours Gulya

[Sheldon12]

xxxx, my love! Every new day I miss you more and more! You don't leave my thoughts, I dream about us all the time, about our first kiss, about your embrace.... I pray for you these days. And I sincerely hope that very soon you will feel better. As I read your lines about your days, I imagine us being there for each other in these moments. I think and dream of you, xxxxxx. I dream of your tight embrace, of your sweet kisses. I see that your days are full of care right now. And I would be happy to help you with your cares. We will always help each other when we are together. I like these beautiful photos from your life. Looking at these photos I can slightly imagine your life in your place. I've been to the travel agency. I explained our situation. They said they could only accept payment from the agency's contracted clients. They recommended that I go to a bank where I could get your help and pay the agency to prepare my travel. So I will go to the bank where I will get the information to pay for my travel. I believe that we will find the way to our meeting, leave behind this distance between us, and be together, be happy. I so often imagine us doing the most ordinary things together. Like going to the grocery store or going for a walk. Anything for home, cleaning, cooking, watching tv, music. Any of these things will bring us a lot of new and pleasant emotions, will give us new memories, happiness! All because we will do it together! For me the whole world will be different when I hold your hand! It's hard to describe in words, but you gave me a new world,
a world where our love lives! Our happiness! I am eternally grateful to fate for this! Writing you these lines and
I can't imagine how to keep emotions in my heart.... If you could hug me now, you would feel how much I need you in these moments..... I will wait with anticipation and excitement for your letter. Yours
and only yours Gulya

[Sheldon12]

In a nutshell I lost some coin to this crafty one> The dialog in the way it was composed was so addicting.
I fucking new better. But the priming and the way it was developed I was powerless

[IceFM]

.... Documents can no longer be surpassed in terms of nonsense